I was driving home from the grocery store tonight when something occurred to me - I've somehow ended up in "the waiting place" when it comes to this journey. Those of you familiar with "Oh the Places You'll Go" by Dr. Seuss will know exactly what I'm talking about. For those of you who are not familiar - you should read it. My version goes like this -I am waiting until I can justify buying that new camera or lens or I want, waiting to find the "perfect" workshop to attend, waiting for approval and criticisms, waiting waiting waiting. And amidst all of this waiting, I've become a bit stagnant in my learning phase...maybe even a bit disillusioned.
So, I've had this self revelation, now what? I wish I could say that I came home and instantly signed up for 3 more classes and a workshop and miraculously found a pile of money laying around to buy all the things I want and think I need. But my friends that is not the case. What I did instead was to quickly put all of my frozen and refrigerated foods away. I grabbed my favorite 19 month old, Lola, and my camera and headed out for a walk. I just needed the fresh air and to spend some time with my girl. We got to the park near my house and I let her off her leash. Don't panic, she's a well trained dog and I've done this with her before. We ran and played and I managed to snap a few pictures of her before the sun finally set.
I needed that walk, and the fresh air, and the fun with Lola to remind me why I started this journey. I also have to remember balance and patience. I can be patient... and yet still make progress. So, for now, I will sign up for 1 more class and commit to pick a workshop to attend for my birthday in March. And, just like that...I begin to leave "the waiting place."